"Well, i have a wide range or music preferences..From Vivaldi to Metallica..From Charlotte Church to Linkin Park..."
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"You like Charlotte Church too?"
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"Yea, I do, I have one of her albums"
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"I LOVE Charlotte Church..How random.."


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I pray you'll be our eyes
And watch us where we go
And help us to be wise
In times when we don't know

Let this be our prayer
As we go our way
Lead us to a place
Guide us with your Grace
To a place where we'll be safe

The Prayer by Charlotte Church



Running made me stronger
Knowing made me wiser
Loving will only make me more like You

i decided to make this the very last of the Running Series... I have no need for them anymore...

i stopped running

by the river bank, i sat
and watched lil paper boats pass me by
capitals and cursive words, its pages filled
I watched em all sail away, one by one
Beside me was a book, its pages torn
But it still smelled of chocolate sundaes
Its edges still kept a hint of its past

I got up

I dug a hole with my hands
Cold dark earth numbed my fingers
But i kept digging
I folded what's left of the book
and buried you under that February tree

I got up

I reached into myself
Cold hard hands against a warm feeble heart
Yes, it's still there
I turned to look at the distant night sky
Do i miss the moon?
I do
All the stars above?
I do... I do...

But over across the far edge
Suddenly a bucket full of sunshine I see
It tumbled and fumbled
And made a mess of the valley

I chuckled

The bucket shouted at me
"I'm sorry I made a mess
But i guess sometimes u just can't go back no more..."

I turned

Around me the river I see
As clear as ever my reflection is
And next to me stood the tree
It's branches high as its roots are deep

i guess i will never forget this place
because this is where it all started
Standing under that February tree
and as i looked around
i realized, suddenly
there are no more walls
there are no more windows
just the river, tree, and me
and that silly bucket down the valley

I have arrived

here again at the beginning
but things are not the same
as i watch the the paper boats sail away
as i feel the edges of the book under my feet
i know in my heart i am not the same anymore
running made me stronger
knowing made me wiser

so i shouted back at the bucket
"welcome back! we missed you!
but u gotta put ur heart to it
if u wanna make it up here with us.."

"we can talk all night if you want
but hey i hope u dont mind
i am bringing a friend this time
dont worry tho', She doesn't bite..."

I smiled and I looked away
coz I dont think there is ever getting over you

She looked at me and said
"Do not fret
Running made you stronger
Knowing made you wiser
Loving will make u human"

I looked up to gaze upon Her face
and I said, "It's okay....
You can have the bucket
And everything within it
Just remind that silly bucket once in a while
That You love it very much..

"Cos You changed my heart
Made me see this world thru Your eyes
You made me stronger
You made me wiser
Loving will only make me more like You..."

The End

it was so hard to sleep last night... probably cos of the exam this afternoon.. but my gosh... it's the exam already, and when the clock strikes 4.15pm... tht's the end of semester one of my first year at Melbourne University...WOW

i woke up to this song.....

Chorus
(Then we'll go) sweepin' through the city,
(where my) captain has gone before
(and we're gonna) sit down by the banks of the rivier;
I won't be back,
I won't be back,
I won't be back no more, no more.

Verse
Blessed are the pure in heart for they'll go,
(sweepin' through the city).
Blessed are the poor in spirit for they'll go,
(sweepin' through the city).
Blessed are they that mourn for they'll go,
(sweepin' through the city).
Blessed are the children of Israel for they'll go,
(sweepin' through the city).

Sweepin' Thru The City by Ron Kenoly



It will be a smashing day..=)

RICHARD LEE PLEASE DONT FALL SICK..!!!!!!

no appetite lar...how? =(

i was running
but something caught my eye
is that indifference i see staring back at me?
i was shocked
i paused and wondered
i looked down and saw my shoes
i fell silent to hear my heart beating
yeah, it's still there

i pulled out a map
made sure i knew where i was going
but i had no idea
am i heading for certain indifference?

so i fell silent again
and i heard my heart beckoning
i reached out to touch it
and realized it's hardly breathing

so i realize i cannot care anymore
i need to brave the valley
i need to fight the demons
and i am going to go to that place
where indifference is a risk i have to take

maybe you're already there
feeling indifferent in your own way
we all feel the pain
we just speak it differently
but i guess, in the end
it's a mystery

i can only pray that you'll find your way
and that indifference will never find you

but for now
i am going to that place
a place where there are no walls
a place where there are no windows
a place where i can stop running
and who knows?
maybe my feeble heart will beat again
and these shoes will dance in the rain again

Sitting all alone in my room
Thinking that the worlds let me down
All I ever wanted to do is to trust someone to always be around
I've had a lot of lessons to learn from
Some of them hit me so hard
And (but) I keep believing that someday you will see

That I am not alone

so smile, sing, dance..
do whatever you want
know that the fact is i am not alone

i have a friend
a very special one
we go karaoke together
we do the miley cyrus dance together
we take walks up and down the streets
we race each other to and from uni
we get confused over how to cook my lunch of the day
we party hard every friday night
we stay up all night eating marshmallows
we get lost together while taking tram
we complain about ridiculous movie ticket prices all the time
we go crazy over yummy purple jackets
we fall asleep in each other's arms
we laugh together
we cry together
we rule the world together

my friend is the ardent fan at the bleachers
my friend is the girl with that secret love letter
my friend is the footsteps beside me in the sand
my friend is the one living inside my heart

so smile, sing, dance..
do whatever you want
know that the fact is

i will not be alone =)

it's 6 degrees outside...
i have no idea what temperature it is in here...
but the glass window is all fogged up...

u know, when i told some of the gals at church during lunch that i once did the mohawk style before... they were so astonished... lol.... is it that hard to believe? maybe i should do it again..=DDD

here i am... listening to electrica dance music, bobbin my head... and it's still 6 degrees outside...

have your hands ever get so cold till it hurt? it happened today... IT WAS SO FREAKING COLD THIS MORNING... i was cycling... by the time i reached uni, i could barely feel my fingers... should have wore gloves...

i had to go to the jamban (toilet) to warm my fingers... @_@ and it hurts... but numb at the same time... weird sensation....

but i earned FIFTY DOLLARS today just by doing a trial english test..lol....all because i went for the DELA... first it wa the 25 dollars and now double pulak (sorry no translation for that..=P) so happy...=D

FIFTY DOLLARS~!!! i need to get a job......lol

i was running
but something caught my eye
is that a window?
yea, the window was gone
u erased it
but i see the pencil again...
at that silent corner
i paused
i thought
i remembered
i remembered why i was running
i turned my head away
and i smiled
at least the pencil is there
i guess i can always draw it again one day
but i remembered
i remembered why i was running
i picked up pace
and continued running
its okay
i will just keep on running
maybe one day u will catch up
maybe you're already there
i dunno
but for now
im going to that place
a place where there are no walls
a place where there are no windows
a place where i can stop running
and who knows
maybe i will dance in the rain again

........first of all

OMG

my dear mummy.... u are so gullible~!!

okay background check....

few days back i posted this as my msn and facebook pm

"Richard Lee is signed, sealed, but not delivered cause i got quarantined.."

the following few days i have been receiving miscalls from home.. i thought it's just again concern for me and so on...

mana tau (who knew)....

just now
mum: u got swine flu ah? u got quarantined?
me: T_T

LAUGH OUT LOUD

In case some of you who doesnt share the same sentiment and taste as me in music, Signed, Sealed, Delivered is a classic okay... HOW CAN U NOT KNOW THE SONG??

but it's okay.. im very touch-ed..thanks for ur concern, mummy =)

and yes jess, it's touch-ed... maybe its a KL thing... but then again, im not surprised u dunno that slang... after all u dont even rmb mee rebus..!! lol

anyway... i tot i'd share with u what i did last night... it's my manifesto =) (yes, those who dunno but still curious, google it..) i hand drew the whole thing... i kinda like it..=) my last submission this semester...

both sides of the paper

the instructions on how to fold the paper

the sequence of hold u read the manifesto

and it stores up in a cookie jar!! =)

and if u fold it up at an angle, it forms a house..!! cool huh..=D

what's next is the dreaded ONE and ONLY PAPER...=P

oh... and i watched the Sound of Music again today..=D Part of my 'after-a-whole-night's-work' treat...

i think the last time i watched it i was only a boy who still wets his bed..lol

watching it made me cry..awwww....dunno why....

i cried while they sang Do-A-Dear...can u believe it??? lol.... and Sixteen going on Seventeen as well... and many others... dunno la...

i am special... =P (bite me)

but seriously... it's just either the movie is really that powerful... or there's something about that show that really touched something deep within...

i cried for no good reason!!!

i mean Do-A-Dear is a happy song la for crying out loud (hey u know what, we can start a new thing..instead of lol let's have col - cry out loud ..=D...)

anyway

my love goes out for Johnson Oen and his family who lost their grandfather... so sorry i couldn't be there at the funeral.. i wanted to... but it clashed with my submission time..=S

i find myself entering into mylie cyrus mode lately... i will break into karaoke with God... i guess i just need it at this very point of time... but hey... a closing word 4 everyone..=)

if you catch hell, don't hold it..
if you're going thru hell, don't stop..!!
- Ron Kenoly -

WAKE UP~!! JOY IS HERE..~~!!

this is what happens after you have a short karaoke session with God...=)

i was looking thru some old documents that i wrote back in my days at taylor's... it was just assignments really... i was re-reading my work... coz i got kinda stuck at my current work...and for some strange reason... i wrote this particular sentence down... i dunno why...but i did... i guess i wasn't really focusing on my draft at that very point of time... but it's like astho i was writing it for me to read, for me right now, at 2009... when this was written, it was 2006...

There are things in life where u have to let go and trust God for the best.. But trust me.. it will NEVER turn out the way we perceive ‘best ‘ to be

indeed, what is best? i will never know... even more increasingly i feel that God is teaching me to have faith in Him and just let go... but even more increasingly i realize how much i do not have faith to let go....

Lord help me to let go, with all my heart soul and mind and not hold anything back but to just let go...

take a knife
and stab it thru my side
i bleed

my beating heart
now i lay in front of you
dont let it break
the pieces hardly fit anymore

forgiveness they say takes time
but the ghost of my past
doesnt seem to know time at all

the painting on my wall
now a white washed canvas
with pencil outlines
and rubber trails at its side
the masterpiece uncertain
the tapestry undone

the walk is long and hard
cold summer sun in the light of the night
and sometimes i lose my way
fearing these all so familiar corridors

but footprints i see beside me
a presence over me
and that chill down my spine
as tears clog up my eyes
and my body start to tremble
i know You are near

and You begin to take up Your brush
and with every stroke
my life unfolds before my life
and the beautiful masterpiece
marred by life
and coloured by love
You placed it on a pedestal
displayed for all to see

but oh so not for me
but oh so for Your Glory
but the world rejoiced
and You smiled
for what the Lord gives
the world can never take away

and when all is said and done
You will bring me to that place
where no more sorrow and pain
and no more shame and sickness
where Your arms are opened wide
and a kiss on my cheek
and a ring on my finger
and a celebration You will have
all for the return of Your son
as You hold me in Your arms
and You whisper these three words
I-Love-You

i am living for the day

dear you

do you see what u made me do? i tried to speak but u silenced me... i tried to show you what works but u put me aside... i tried to help but u think im too dominating... so what is a soul to do but to just stay silent?

but hey you

look around you... all the opportunities that you are missing... all the possibilities that you are passing... look around you...it's there!!! grab it!!! but no, maybe you are too comfortable... maybe you are too afraid... maybe everything has turn all too familiar....

but do u know?

i stand here among you every week... sometimes i feel i dunno wat to say... i feel afraid... afraid to say the wrong things... afraid to push you around... so i watch my words... i watch my face... sometimes i just dont bother... but i cant

i dont even know why i bother... after all it has only been 4 months... but i am now so attached to you that when part of you actually wants to leave... i feel sad... really sad... sad cos i know i am not in the position to do anything... so i just sit back and watch...

but hey you

will u let me speak? will u hear me out?

maybe it doesnt have to end this way after all.....

*** when i say you, it doesnt refer to anyone in specific... not at all.... you are me, i am u, we are the body...