it's 6 degrees outside...
i have no idea what temperature it is in here...
but the glass window is all fogged up...

u know, when i told some of the gals at church during lunch that i once did the mohawk style before... they were so astonished... lol.... is it that hard to believe? maybe i should do it again..=DDD

here i am... listening to electrica dance music, bobbin my head... and it's still 6 degrees outside...

have your hands ever get so cold till it hurt? it happened today... IT WAS SO FREAKING COLD THIS MORNING... i was cycling... by the time i reached uni, i could barely feel my fingers... should have wore gloves...

i had to go to the jamban (toilet) to warm my fingers... @_@ and it hurts... but numb at the same time... weird sensation....

but i earned FIFTY DOLLARS today just by doing a trial english test..lol....all because i went for the DELA... first it wa the 25 dollars and now double pulak (sorry no translation for that..=P) so happy...=D

FIFTY DOLLARS~!!! i need to get a job......lol

i was running
but something caught my eye
is that a window?
yea, the window was gone
u erased it
but i see the pencil again...
at that silent corner
i paused
i thought
i remembered
i remembered why i was running
i turned my head away
and i smiled
at least the pencil is there
i guess i can always draw it again one day
but i remembered
i remembered why i was running
i picked up pace
and continued running
its okay
i will just keep on running
maybe one day u will catch up
maybe you're already there
i dunno
but for now
im going to that place
a place where there are no walls
a place where there are no windows
a place where i can stop running
and who knows
maybe i will dance in the rain again

........first of all

OMG

my dear mummy.... u are so gullible~!!

okay background check....

few days back i posted this as my msn and facebook pm

"Richard Lee is signed, sealed, but not delivered cause i got quarantined.."

the following few days i have been receiving miscalls from home.. i thought it's just again concern for me and so on...

mana tau (who knew)....

just now
mum: u got swine flu ah? u got quarantined?
me: T_T

LAUGH OUT LOUD

In case some of you who doesnt share the same sentiment and taste as me in music, Signed, Sealed, Delivered is a classic okay... HOW CAN U NOT KNOW THE SONG??

but it's okay.. im very touch-ed..thanks for ur concern, mummy =)

and yes jess, it's touch-ed... maybe its a KL thing... but then again, im not surprised u dunno that slang... after all u dont even rmb mee rebus..!! lol

anyway... i tot i'd share with u what i did last night... it's my manifesto =) (yes, those who dunno but still curious, google it..) i hand drew the whole thing... i kinda like it..=) my last submission this semester...

both sides of the paper

the instructions on how to fold the paper

the sequence of hold u read the manifesto

and it stores up in a cookie jar!! =)

and if u fold it up at an angle, it forms a house..!! cool huh..=D

what's next is the dreaded ONE and ONLY PAPER...=P

oh... and i watched the Sound of Music again today..=D Part of my 'after-a-whole-night's-work' treat...

i think the last time i watched it i was only a boy who still wets his bed..lol

watching it made me cry..awwww....dunno why....

i cried while they sang Do-A-Dear...can u believe it??? lol.... and Sixteen going on Seventeen as well... and many others... dunno la...

i am special... =P (bite me)

but seriously... it's just either the movie is really that powerful... or there's something about that show that really touched something deep within...

i cried for no good reason!!!

i mean Do-A-Dear is a happy song la for crying out loud (hey u know what, we can start a new thing..instead of lol let's have col - cry out loud ..=D...)

anyway

my love goes out for Johnson Oen and his family who lost their grandfather... so sorry i couldn't be there at the funeral.. i wanted to... but it clashed with my submission time..=S

i find myself entering into mylie cyrus mode lately... i will break into karaoke with God... i guess i just need it at this very point of time... but hey... a closing word 4 everyone..=)

if you catch hell, don't hold it..
if you're going thru hell, don't stop..!!
- Ron Kenoly -

WAKE UP~!! JOY IS HERE..~~!!

this is what happens after you have a short karaoke session with God...=)

i was looking thru some old documents that i wrote back in my days at taylor's... it was just assignments really... i was re-reading my work... coz i got kinda stuck at my current work...and for some strange reason... i wrote this particular sentence down... i dunno why...but i did... i guess i wasn't really focusing on my draft at that very point of time... but it's like astho i was writing it for me to read, for me right now, at 2009... when this was written, it was 2006...

There are things in life where u have to let go and trust God for the best.. But trust me.. it will NEVER turn out the way we perceive ‘best ‘ to be

indeed, what is best? i will never know... even more increasingly i feel that God is teaching me to have faith in Him and just let go... but even more increasingly i realize how much i do not have faith to let go....

Lord help me to let go, with all my heart soul and mind and not hold anything back but to just let go...

take a knife
and stab it thru my side
i bleed

my beating heart
now i lay in front of you
dont let it break
the pieces hardly fit anymore

forgiveness they say takes time
but the ghost of my past
doesnt seem to know time at all

the painting on my wall
now a white washed canvas
with pencil outlines
and rubber trails at its side
the masterpiece uncertain
the tapestry undone

the walk is long and hard
cold summer sun in the light of the night
and sometimes i lose my way
fearing these all so familiar corridors

but footprints i see beside me
a presence over me
and that chill down my spine
as tears clog up my eyes
and my body start to tremble
i know You are near

and You begin to take up Your brush
and with every stroke
my life unfolds before my life
and the beautiful masterpiece
marred by life
and coloured by love
You placed it on a pedestal
displayed for all to see

but oh so not for me
but oh so for Your Glory
but the world rejoiced
and You smiled
for what the Lord gives
the world can never take away

and when all is said and done
You will bring me to that place
where no more sorrow and pain
and no more shame and sickness
where Your arms are opened wide
and a kiss on my cheek
and a ring on my finger
and a celebration You will have
all for the return of Your son
as You hold me in Your arms
and You whisper these three words
I-Love-You

i am living for the day

dear you

do you see what u made me do? i tried to speak but u silenced me... i tried to show you what works but u put me aside... i tried to help but u think im too dominating... so what is a soul to do but to just stay silent?

but hey you

look around you... all the opportunities that you are missing... all the possibilities that you are passing... look around you...it's there!!! grab it!!! but no, maybe you are too comfortable... maybe you are too afraid... maybe everything has turn all too familiar....

but do u know?

i stand here among you every week... sometimes i feel i dunno wat to say... i feel afraid... afraid to say the wrong things... afraid to push you around... so i watch my words... i watch my face... sometimes i just dont bother... but i cant

i dont even know why i bother... after all it has only been 4 months... but i am now so attached to you that when part of you actually wants to leave... i feel sad... really sad... sad cos i know i am not in the position to do anything... so i just sit back and watch...

but hey you

will u let me speak? will u hear me out?

maybe it doesnt have to end this way after all.....

*** when i say you, it doesnt refer to anyone in specific... not at all.... you are me, i am u, we are the body...