first of all

why didnt anyone leave a comment about my last post? haha... is the mention of my father that intimadating? lol or is it not funny? =(

watever~

it's 3am... honestly i cant be bothered going thru the portfolio again.. i'm just so so tired already.. should be fine la... some pages are so boring, i must confess.. but some are just so nice..=) haha.. i guess i will just have to be quick with the boring pages when i am presenting...

OH DEAR GOD, PLEASE LET EM LIKE ME...I'M A NICE PERSON RIGHT?

okay... i am starting to whine.. not good... but I'M JUST SO TIRED...

cant wait for friday..seriously.......


oh.. i just realized... stupid blogger doesnt know how to auto update himself on daylight saving.. tsk...

OK TIME to CRASH..

*side note*

Dearly beloved reader,

i know you love me that is why you are stalking this whiny blog..=) SO.. do me a favour? please pray for me.. this Friday 4PM... is my interview... i dont wanna get my hopes up... but i really do find this company interesting.. and i really like their people... and since they called me back for an interview, i hope they will like me too...

please pray that i will have a clear mind, confident and steady. pray that they will be cheerful and open towards what i have to offer.. i guess ultimately, just help pray that God's hand will be over the entire interview..

amen? amen..=) thank u... will keep u guys informed of what happens

Mid Autumn Day

Once upon a mid autmn night, there was a young man...

He just started working not too long ago..

And is beaming with hope and a bright future...

But unfortunately, just a little naive and under exposed... (lol)

Then came a fellow colleague who had an insatiable craving for em round thingies called mooncakes...

Said that greedy fellow colleague to the beaming young man,

"Hey, Leslie, would you mind going down to the bakery across the road..

and get for me two 'ping pei (cold skin)' mooncakes please?"...

And so he did...

Moments later, the beaming young man came back disturbed..

He passed the paper bag of mooncakes to his fellow colleague ...

His colleague immeadiately digged into the bag expecting to find his 'ping pei' mooncakes..

But turned to Leslie and asked,

"Didn't I asked for 'ping pei'? You brought me the normal ones.."..

Leslie shrugged and said, "You meant the green ones in the fridge?"

"YeAH.. that's the one!"

Disgusted, Leslie bounced back, "But they 'fatt mou (fermented)' already wan wo !?"

*SWEAT DROP*

YEAP... that is my daddy~

i will never forget this story.. i rmb the first time he told us the story,

grace and i couldnt stop laughing in utter amazement..

OUR FATHER?? THAT NAIVE???? LAUGH OUT LOUD~!!!

haha.. but yes, i guess we all have our share of youthful innocence

that we just lost somewhere along the way in the name of maturity..

but that is my dad.. he can be so random and unexpected at times...

Love you Pups.. Always...

When Reality Sinks In

everything around me in still silence
as i breathe a long sigh
my eyes stares into nothingness
my mind starts to drift away

but my heart pulls me back
gives me two tight slap
like a puppet on a string
i jerk myself back to life

the celebration ended
the parade stopped
now the streets are left empty
quiet and barren, i hear the wind speak

this is reality
this is now
and it's now or never

yes, it's really simple to be happy
but i find it's even easier to just slip away
slip away into the temptation of just hiding
just plain ol cowardly hiding

is it alright to say that i am scared?
yes i am scared...
i feel so foolish..
standing here in the middle of His providence
yet i shrink away in fear and doubt
i feel so foolish..
claiming to be the son of the Almighty God
yet my eyes tremble instead of looking up
where my help comes from...

this is reality
this is now
and it's now or never

Teach me to rid myself of selfish desires
Teach me to not depend on mountain moments
Teach me to believe for greater things
Teach me to understand that even when i make my bed in the depths of hell
You are with me

Yes, this is reality
and You are with me

O-M-G

here i am sitting here in my room
still trying to digest what just happened
well.. not like the world ended
but i'm just so baffled at how many times God has proven Himself true to me
all the lil n random n often funny and unexpected ways
i just dunno what to say

when i needed an ironing board
He gave me one for plus size apparels and the board turned out SO huge..lol

when i needed a reason to smile
He gave me daffodils on the sidewalks and pretty cherry blossums to look at

when i needed proper food
He overloaded me with sushi and sushi and more sushi

when i needed a friend
He gave me the best bff ever =)

when i needed a family
He gave me everyone in RCC

and when i thought i have messed it all up because of my own procrastination and lack of wisdom in time management
He gave me a job interview

like can you believe it ??

just out of the blue..!!!!
i am just so lost for words...
this is really happening..



O-M-G....
O-M-G....
O-M-G....
O-M-G....
O-M-G....


haha.. ok i need to pee now.. bye

Dear Jubilee

Dear Jubilee

I sit here every night wondering how are you gonna be? yea, i know it's totally too early to think about it.. but sometimes i just cant help it..

will u have my eyes? no wait, no pls dont have my eyes (dear God, please take note..lol) i dont like em.. well, do me a favour, and look like ur mum! lol.. i bet she will be beautiful..=) but i hope you'd share my same sense of immature humour and laugh along with me whenever i try to cheer u up.. always dream big. because u have a God that is watching over you always, and you deserve the best...

have you seen mummy? well neither have i.. she's a mystery, that one.. never really understand or understood her till now.. quite honestly, i dont even know how she would look like... haha... you should pray along with me~ dont worry about me tho.. daddy will be fine.. just a lil confused... hopefully mummy will find her way home one day..=)

i know God is placing the lil pieces of you together right now.. deciding on which parts of me to include into your system.. haha.. but i know you will be beautiful..=) prolli God is planning out your life right now, all your hopes and dreams, all your tears and joy.. every single laughter and every single cry..hmm...

but always rmb everything happens for a reason and always know your existance will never be in vain.. always rmb your life has God sized dreams... and dont ever ever let your past dictate who you're gonna be... because you are Jubilee.. and you are special.. always will be...

Love,
Daddy

Small Gestures

Small gestures and simple pleasures
Always something we take for granted
But somehow, these few days, i get it a lot...

This week has been crazy crazy crazy
Firstly, my leg is a BIG pain in the butt
Cos for some strange a reason i cant figure out
I overworked my leg and now my thighs are so freaking weak
Cant even climb the stairs properly

And i am like trying to juggle between my portfolio and my current uni work...Felt so terrible on tuesday night cos i knew i could have come up with something way better than any of those .... well, common ideas that were being explored by the class... i just knew i can do better than that... but i spent so much time on my portfolio.. haiz... not dead yet.. still coping.. still alive! =)

but when i say simple pleasures.. well, its just the little things God would put along the way... just to make my life sweeter..

like.. somehow... as much as i was hating the fact that i have to walk to uni this week, and having my legs being such a pain... i noticed lil white daisies sprouting out all over the green strips along royal parade... i mean, they're so pretty~! haha.. small lil pretty things... quite nice to look at.. made my journey to uni that slightly better..=)

simple gestures like my lecturer postponing a lecture this week and resulting in my appointment with annemarie being postponed to next week as well... which gives me more time to work on my portfolio.. which consequently gives me more time to work on my studio idea..=)

and i guess one of the biggest example of God's faithfulness is what happened just now...

i didnt take my breakfast and had to rush to uni.. and when it was all over it was already 1.30pm... i didnt wanna spend money on lunch so i decided i should just go home and cook... and i had quite alot to carry.. and i was hungry enough to eat a cow and my legs were killing me.. and well, i was VERY TEMPTED to hitch a free ride from the trams...

and its funny how the devil likes to tempt us... cos when i walked out to the main road... the tram was already leaving the stop... so i was like .. ok whatever.. i missed it, just walk... then suddenly, i could see ANOTHER oncoming tram from the stop further down the road... and again.. VERY TEMPTED to get on it... besides.. no one checks ur ticket anyway once u left the city area... i stood at the stop and contemplated for quite a while.. haha...

but i decided i shouldn't anyway.. it's not right...=)

so i walked... with my headphones on.. i just sorta started to do some thinking... the walk didnt feel tiresome at all... and before i knew it, i was home...

but then i realized something... on my way home, i actually came up with a fantastic idea of what to do for my pop architecture project (just one of the many other things that i am trying to juggle with)...!!! and this idea actually happened ON MY WAY HOME...haha

and i realized that if i had hitched a free ride on that tram... i would mostly be SO pre-occupied with looking out for em tram officers that i would never have time to come up with this idea... !!! =)

so yea, God is faithful to those who are faithful to Him.. even in little things such as not hitching a free ride from the tram... haha.. cos i think the idea i received is way more precious..=)

WEEK 2 OF UNI (AGAIN)

and so it begins, another week in uni...

this time i started out with sore thighs, arms and a sore back.. thanks to the game of paintball last saturday... i really need to work out more.. i mean, even siting down on my chair hurts~!!! LOL... crazy i know....

but what can i say? it has been a wonderful week... God opened many doors for me... nothing really concrete now, but it's a start...=) and it's really up to me now to make the most of them...

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now on a side note... just wanna give a shout out to all T.U.G.ians and GTSDians!!!
HAPPY 17TH ANNIVERSARY~!!!!!!
was stalking Keng's fb.. and here's a few shots i love... =)

it was nice to see the Leong Family around again.. =)

goodness Keng.... Allison is becoming more like u~!! LOL

Pastor Helen and the worship band

i can't say that i do not miss you guys...
the time we painted the youth room with that dove
the time we came together to work out our first self written song
the time when all we had was a stereo for sound effects in our sketches
the time we shared in kids church and all that screaming
the time we presented our first fully self composed Christmas presentation
the time the invited pastor prophesied over our future as a youth group
the time where we had to relocate to a new building
the time where we had our first youth rally
the time where we had our first TUG race
the time where we had to learn table manners
the time where we had to learn self control and leadership by example
the time we hit 30 strong
the time pastor clement prophesied that we will no longer be the Upcoming Generation but the Ultimate Generation

all the times spent in the bus on the way to camp
all the times spent sleeping on the bus coming home from camp
all the times where we had to send ppl away
all the times where we celebrated someone's birthday
all the times we held hands and sang and jumped in unison

all the times we thought we were going to lose it
all the times we know we are undefeated

and i am sure there are more memories... too much to list down

after 17 years of being in almost every picture of the church... now tht i am not in any... makes me happy... cos the picture i see is a picture of a youth that is growing and will continue to grow.. i hear it is now 40 strong? touching 50 already? =)

keep it going.. you are the ultimate...