MC-53

take a knife
and stab it thru my side
i bleed

my beating heart
now i lay in front of you
dont let it break
the pieces hardly fit anymore

forgiveness they say takes time
but the ghost of my past
doesnt seem to know time at all

the painting on my wall
now a white washed canvas
with pencil outlines
and rubber trails at its side
the masterpiece uncertain
the tapestry undone

the walk is long and hard
cold summer sun in the light of the night
and sometimes i lose my way
fearing these all so familiar corridors

but footprints i see beside me
a presence over me
and that chill down my spine
as tears clog up my eyes
and my body start to tremble
i know You are near

and You begin to take up Your brush
and with every stroke
my life unfolds before my life
and the beautiful masterpiece
marred by life
and coloured by love
You placed it on a pedestal
displayed for all to see

but oh so not for me
but oh so for Your Glory
but the world rejoiced
and You smiled
for what the Lord gives
the world can never take away

and when all is said and done
You will bring me to that place
where no more sorrow and pain
and no more shame and sickness
where Your arms are opened wide
and a kiss on my cheek
and a ring on my finger
and a celebration You will have
all for the return of Your son
as You hold me in Your arms
and You whisper these three words
I-Love-You

i am living for the day