MC-53

i decided to be funny today

so.........



thats my morning face... wait... its NOT exactly morning... its like 12.12pm already... so i have slept for 12 hours..wow... lol

notice the pimple on my face??? =( yea, big time =( ...haha...

lemme tell u guy what i found out this whole week...hehe

DISCOVERY #1 : THE BUNNY SURVIVED
yeah, AMAZING aint it? so many times i thought i can just lie down and die..LOL....okay... over-exaggerating there but still.. it is true... this week was SO SO tough...i had major submission for every single one of my subject....and all of them was like so complicated...

ANYWAY

DISCOVERY #2 : CONFESSION OF A STRESSED OUT BUNNY
i realized that this would make a great movie~! LOL....seriously... starring Richard Lee Mun Chun..wow....and FAST AND FURIOUS IS COMING TO TOWN~!!!!! *gleaming eyeballs* wanna watch...but SO EXPANSIVE... i miss Golden Screen Cinemas and REASONABLE student rates...

DISCOVERY #3 : THAT WEIRD FELLA AT UNI
during my last day and night at uni... i was at my comlab all along... AND u know the freakiest thing?? theres this dude that w...(wait, did i just say dude? anita!! what u doin to me?.. and ...OH OH... change topic...i have a better discovery to tell u first..!)

REVISED DISCOVERY #3 : THAT WEIRD AUSSIE THING
i realized that there are alot of weird aussie stuff that we dont do back home... like...

DUDE...anita u use this way too much... but the thing is its so normal to u... to the point it kind of nullifies the feling that its inauthentic... cos back home, the usage of DUDE... is like... pretentious... u only use it if ur being funny or if u reall have an identity crisis and wanna be one of those american rap stars..LOL

BOOYA... this is from shazza.. erm guys , shazza means sharon.. its kinda like a nickname these aussie ppl made for her..notice how i say 'aussie ppl'? LOL ANYWAY... its just something else we wouldnt use...not ever

HIGH FIVE....like what? i remember being in church for the first time and the MC went ike lets goaround and say hi to everyone ad give the a high five... for a moment i was like what?? erm... u sure?? LOL...cos its just SO awkward.. but we had it again last night.. i just tagged along... it rubs onto u i guess after a while... but THEN i found out that joanna and joshua (a msian and indon) both fond it weird too.. so i sorta tot..instead of going around high five-ing... we could just stop, stand, stare, smile, walk away..LOL..

SPORK.....yes it EXIST... its smart combination of the spoon and the fork, hence the spork..i remember in one of my farewell dinners at The Garden, 1U ... and i accidentally said spork instead of fork.. all of u fella were having a jolly good time laughing at me...WELL i was RIGHT. it does exist.. i was just having a pre-aussie moment!! haha.. so to all those who laughed, in the words of shazza, BOO-YA..XD

okay thats all for now... i will tell u more if i ever come across sumthing

DISCOVERY #4 : THAT WEIRD FELLA AT UNI
during my last day and night at uni... i was at my comlab all along... AND u know the freakiest thing?? theres this dude that was there since like 5pm thursday... he stayed there ALL night even till the morning.. doing what? watching youtube... all night. i mean like what?? and he wasnt exactly the most perfect looking guy... imagine this, fat, round, obnoxious, certainly smelly, geeky, china man face. (oh gosh im being so mean..) but yea... he is just weird.. whole night he was just laughing and sometimes he even talks... like astho he is talking to somebody... i cant be certain cos it all just mumbles.. but imagine in a room alone with this fella..*awkward moment* exactly...

ANYWAY

DISCOVERY #5 : DEODORANTS
i realized that if im gonna continue all this all nighter thingie at uni... i could seriously use some deodorant.. imagine having spent the whole day in a stuff comlab and you need to stuff urself into a crowded lift with a fairly beautiful girl next to u..and suddenly u realize u smell...why? cos u havent been bathing the whole day and prolly the day before too...( i know Keng, go ahead and say eewww)

yes, first thing on my shopping list this week... deodorant! so that i dont have to bath! =D (kidd...)

DISCOVERY #6 : REASON WHY UNION HOUSE FOOD IS CHEAP
why?...
CAUSE THEY'RE ALL YUCKY SUCKY HORRIBLLE TERRIBLE VEGGITABLE FOOD

DISCOVERY #7 : GETTING OBVIOUS THAT IM RUNNING OUT OF DISCOVERIES

but one thing i found out last night... about myself..

somehow when im here... things changed.. i changed...

i started to have this impetuous desire to just express myself to somebody...i dunno..its weird... i just have this desire to have someone to just be able to pour out everything to..every hurt pain joy victory inspiration desire problem and answer. at first i thought i found someone but now im not too sure if i did or was i just just so desperate trying to feed my need that i lied to myself..

ok this is where my tots go wild and im just gonna ramble

i dunno... its never really happned before.. but then again... maybe it has all along but i never became aware of it till now.. cos perhaps back home i had ppl like aling, keng, andrea, and sister (notice how they'r all gals???) to just share my joys and pains and so i neverfelt that need..or perhaps i became so oblivion to that side of me i took all of em for granted by telling myself richard can live alone...maybe it has been a lie all along....

cos for some weird reason i feel like i need such a person now...but the thing is i have no one.. or rather no one can fill that shoes... i thought i found somebody.. but it became SO awkward for her that i start to feel maybe she is avoiding me now to prevent certain things from happening.. i dunno...

sometimes i ask myself why must it be a she why cant it be a he.. i have no answers.. i just know that i can express myself better with a she.. and when ever i do i somehow always expects that the she will be transparent to me too and also perhaps share her problems and joy with me...

but now things have gone rather awkward between me and her i also dunno what to do.. maybe its just me.. maybe im just thinking too much and she isnt avoiding me... but i dunno.. im gonna talk to her this sunday anyway so i will find out i guess..

but then i realize that the problem isnt with her... its with me... how can i impose on someone a frenship that i have shared with someone else for so long and now just expect her to respond that same way... its just absurd...but yet i need that person.. a person to just talk to...without having to fear whether the person will be awkward towards me or not...

yesterday night i prayed.. i said God if this is not the one then bring me someone else cos i look around and i dun see anyone else better than she cos we are like so similar in so many ways its scary.. but thats whats interesting and she felt that bond too...but probably because of this very bond.. now shes backing out in fear that it may turn into something else.. im perfectly fine with that... but not till u avoid me...but then again... maybe its just me...maybe im making things up...

so i dunno.. i prayed that God will teach me to share it with Him instead and dont have the need to share it with anyone else..but its hard..its just not that simple...

AND WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE A GAL????? WHY CANT IT BE A GUY??????

LOL

i mean its so weird... i mean, i try to be ur fren but i have the risk of falling for u? so paradoxical...

i mean i cant possibly always be blogging.. its just too public.. i need some privacy too rite?

oh well... so yeah... why i do even need such an outlet anyway.. and the funny thing is i expect that outlet to treat me the same way too... its just this reliance we share, me and aling, that i guess im carrying the after effect of it right now.... and i cant possibly impose in on someone who just only know me for a month...its just a total nonsense...and whats more shes a gal, for crying out loud...gosh...

IM CRAZY

anyway... this is to my lil sista...get well soon kay...why are u having a fever now anyway? i should be the one thats sick not u...haha..

miss u guys loads, really..